We now have a walking little boy in the house!
He's still in that stage where he's very uncoordinated, and falls over every few steps... but he's definately walking! Im so proud of my little preemie. :) I do have to admit though, that when he took his first steps, I cried and wanted to make him sit back down. :)

His birthday is next month! Coming up so quickly! He was ALMOST born today... I think I started this blog a year a go exactly. Maybe. This was the day a year ago that eh stopped moving, failed to NST's, and then was almost delivered. But like I said on facebook-- Thank goodness its not his birthday!!!!!

So far so good with this pregnancy. Everything is going just as it should. I was sick for 2 weeks, but so far this week, I havent been sick at all. Not sure what thats all about, but Im not complaining. Ive just been EXTRA tried.

Its been fun to go back to the, online shopping for my baby, obsession. :) Except its a little less overwhelming since we know what we need this time. We scheduled a gender scan for September 24th. We will be almost 17 weeks. I am excited because Michael's mommy and my mommy and Breydon of corse, are going to go with us. :)It should be an exciting day... IF they can tell us what we are having! lol. The we will have our regular 20 week gender scan at the doctors office.

Next appt on August 22nd. I think thats just for blood work. Bleck. But maybe we will get to see the baby again too. Who knows. Dr Wheeler did say he would scan us every appointment... but this time Im seeing the midwife since its bloodwork. Like I said-- who knows.

Starting Over

Due March 6th 2012

Heartbeat of 152

7.2 weeks gestation

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((Im okay with people knowing, but let's not plaster the good news all over facebook quite yet...))

I have a doctors appointment tomorrow, that Im not sure I want to go to. Im nervous about it. Please pray that my BP is normal still. :) And for my nerves.

The SCARIEST thing of my life.

We have been using the "Cry it Out" method (a modified version) during nap time with Breydon. It's worked for the most part- he can put himself to sleep now, and thats especially helpful in the middle of the night. So this afternoon, I was laying Breydon down for a nap. He obviously didn't want to do, so I kept going in every few minutes and laying him back down, and then leaving the room. I got back to the living room, and was sitting on the couch when I hear a thud. He tends to throw his sippy and paci out of the crib when he's mad. So I didnt think much of it. The next thing I know, the crying gets closer and closer... so in a panic I run in his direction. There he is, speed crawling down the hall way toward me, crying his face off. All his limbs were in tact, he wasnt gushing blood. I was terrified and scared to death, so I was crying, but as soon as I picked him up he was fine. He wanted to play. I guess Breydon wins, this round- No more naps for him today!

Breydon likes to take showers with mommy (because he can splash and crawl on the bottom of the tub without worrying about going under the water. Plus, its just faster than doing two separate baths. ANYWAY) It made me kinda sad, because I was remembering his first little bath in the NICU where they didnt even rinse his shampoo out of his hair, because the water on his head would make him too cold.  (And at this point he was working really hard to regulate his body temperature, so we didnt want to make it harder) So they rubbed the shampoo in and left it. I remember thinking it was weird. Brey loves when I wash his hair. He always gets the biggest smile. Actually, the whole time he's in the shower he looks at me, wide-eyed and open mouthed, because he discovered the water on the wall, or the little pool of water by the drain. It looks like he's thinking, "Do you see this, Momma?!" I love him.

Im not sure what it is. Maybe its beacause he turns one next month. Maybe its because this time last year we almost had to deliver my baby 10 weeks early. Or maybe a combination. But I keep finding myself thinking lots about Breydon at the beginning. How far he's come from all the tubes.

In February, right after we found out that he was on the way, I wrote in my prayer/praide book from the Howett's. I wrote that I was scared, but that I knew God wouldnt have given this tiny baby to me, if he didnt think I could do it. And I wrote that I hoped I could meet Breydon some day, but even if I never got the chance, I was thankful for him. God showed me that I could deal with much more than just a baby. I could even handle a sick baby, and a baby with a heart condition. And all in all, I think I do a pretty good job. He's growing, he's happy, he's smart, and more than anything, hes LOVED. Its sad to watch him grow up, but I can't wait to see what God is going to do with him.



Im feeling EXTRA emotional today, so...

I loved you the minute I heard you were coming. I loved you the minute you were born. Then I saw your face and fell in love some more. You were only a minute old, but I knew I would die for you and to this day I still would. When you choose to have a child you make a conscious decision to allow your heart to walk around outside of your body.

I dont put these things as my statuses. I like to steer-clear of all things "cheeseball", but like I said. Im feeling kinda emotional. My baby does turn one next month, after all. :)